Oh how I've been putting off the next entry in
my blog!! I used to be so disciplined about getting in an entry a week,
even if it wasn't much or just a link to someone else's ideas, but so much has
happened in three (three!) short weeks that I feel overwhelmed with the sense
of obligation to write about all of it.
First of all, I ran a marathon. A marathon
that I haven't really properly reflected upon, because I was in the midst of a
whirlwind trip of amazing nonstop fun with my wonderful family, and one that I
haven't properly processed because it's been bookended by injury - and more
importantly, worry, anxiety, and self-pity around those injuries.
I was so resentful and scared to be going into
it with a messed up hamstring (which, by the way, although it still felt
painful the morning of the race, magically worked itself out during the first
couple miles and went away!) that it eclipsed a lot of the excitement I would
have otherwise felt. I was definitely excited, but being afraid of not being
able to even run a mile put a damper on it.
The race itself, physically, felt really rough.
Maybe it was because the crazy weather and the crazy hamstring took away
my last week of training runs, who knows - but it was a lot more painful than
any of my long training runs, and a lot earlier on too. Well before the
halfway mark I was feeling like getting under 5 hours wasn't going to be
physically possible, which was disappointing - despite the fact that I should
have just been focusing on finishing it at all and enjoying being there!
I lightened up a little in the second half, though sadly my knee and foot
pain did not!
The race was like one long (5.34.39)
conversation with myself. I was surrounded by thousands of other runners
and fun Disney characters and amazing volunteers and
spectators and high school marching bands and great music, but as many runners
who run without headphones will attest, there's nothing to do but talk to
yourself and listen. Mantras came up a lot -
"Healthy and Strong" was a big one in the last 5 miles when
everything hurt and felt anything but! After listening to "Two
Gomers Run For Their Lives," one of my favorite podcasts, I've adopted one
of their sayings, which they adapted from a Bible quote - "Take your
thoughts captive." Anthony says that to himself (or is told by his
wife!) when he knows his own worry or negative thoughts are getting in the way
of his physical capabilities or his happiness. It's right in line
with this entry I wrote back in November, and
was a huge guiding force in how I maintained positivity during the race.
And it really was fun!
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| Best sister ever! |
It was very different from how I imagined it would be - from the beginning, this was all about doing it with my sister. We've done every "first" race together - 5K, 10K, and half marathon. Part of why we did Disney at all was because of how she fell in love with it while on her honeymoon there - she was so excited to go back and do a race Disney style! It was incredibly hard for her to step back and decide not to run, but it was absolutely the right thing to do. The most important thing is the health and safety of her and the two beautiful babies she's growing. It's the first big race like that I've done without her by my side to keep constant conversation going - and to keep each other on pace! But luckily - it's very easy to text during walk breaks!
I also had the most amazing support via text
from her, my mom, my husband, and my friends (especially Lisa, who was
literally praying for me during her church service while I was running!).
My mom and sister, of course, were there in person and able to cheer me
on from Mile 5 and, most importantly, at the finish line.
Crossing the finish line was unbelievable.
I got to see my mom and sister in the stands and wave as I took the last
several steps. Mickey Mouse was right there waiting with a congratulatory
high five, which was the coolest thing ever. I was fighting tears almost
the whole race, as is usually the case on a big race - there are so many
incredible moments, so many heart-stirring signs of love and support from
spectators, so many inspiring fellow runners. Being Disney and being a
full (and my first!) marathon made it ten times worse! So much Disney
music and Disney joy and childhood memories and constant messages of magic and
perseverance - oh god, it's a miracle I wasn't crying the whole damn time.
Plus there were moments the pain in my knees made me want to cry for
sure. I nearly lost it when I saw that Mile 25 was bringing us through France in Epcot - my favorite (albeit fake) country!
I finally let it all go approaching and crossing
the finish line. It was amazing and unbelievable.
I unfortunately did sustain some kind of mystery
injury in my left foot - either from the race itself or from foolishly walking
around for the following week (between Epcot, Magic Kingdom, and going back to
work & teaching), I've been crutch-bound for the past week and a half.
That's been its own marathon and its own teacher, but as I'm writing
this, I realize I've been completely focused on the injuries and I haven't just
let the marathon be. I think this is enough for one entry. More to
come next week.
The only thing left to say is thank you to
everyone who sent me any supportive words or thoughts at all throughout the
whole process. Having the friends, family, and support system I have is a
blessing I don't take lightly and never want to take for granted.
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| In front of Cinderell-y's castle! By the way, Megan's shirt says "I was planned" and "I was a surprise!" So cute and so true! |
