I have to start by saying - I should really plan on writing my blog before reading the news. My plan was simply to write about the absolute joy and glory and gratitude of finally, finally, FINALLY - after almost six months - I went on my first walk/run since my injury. And as of this morning, my second!
And then - Betsy DeVos and the inevitable gutting of our public schools. HR 861. A permeating feeling of helplessness, hopelessness, despair, rage. A feeling that all the phone calls and protests are for naught. How can I write about something so trivial as running after all of that?
Because running will be an absolutely essential tool for my sanity during these hard times. Last week I touched a bit on self care, and running is really more of the same. Part of why it's been so hard not to run is that it automatically gives me more energy and confidence and ability to take other people's crap without taking it on. Running doesn't just make me physically stronger and more powerful, it makes me mentally and emotionally stronger and more powerful.
If there's one thing the left needs over these next years, it's strength and power.
I'm starting slow. Walking for 4 minutes, running for 1 in intervals for 30 minutes this week. Seeing how I feel. Checking in with my feet. (Yes, feet plural - my right big toe doesn't want to feel left out of all the attention my left heel is getting) But even that slow, steady start is bringing back a strength and a joy that I haven't felt in so long I almost forgot how amazing it feels.
We're going to get knocked down a lot in the coming years, no doubt about it. What matters is the strength to get back up and fight harder and smarter with each subsequent issue worth fighting for. I waited about a thousand times longer to get back to running then I thought I would have to when I first went to the doctor back in August, but there is no time like the present to get it all back.
Stay tuned for more about how my running - and eventual races - are going to be put toward good causes in this good fight.